Mel Gibson told the mother of his 11-month old daughter, Oksana Grigorieva, that he is “a f@*#ing failure.”
TMZ.com reports that Gibson, 54, who was accused of domestic violence against Grigorieva, 40, emailed her to apologize for his behavior.
The day after Gibson allegedly attacked Grigorieva on January 6, 2010, he sent her an email, asking “How’s your tooth?”, along with another message, “I want to tell you how uspeakably sorry I am (sic).”
Gibson sent another message on March 2 from his iPhone, in which he wrote: “I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. Sorry it has to affect you. I can’t stand anything any more… I’m stuck. I try to be ok but it overpowers me & i’m something I don’t want to be. It’s a primal scream thing. The pain is too great & everywhere I turn is making it heavier. Oh to have peace! Oh to have joy. Oh to be able to provide it for another. I’m a f***ing failure. (sic)”
The actor had accused his ex-girlfriend of attempting to extort money from him, but on March 7th he wrote her, “I love you… I was terrified of where we were going & my outbursts & the potential for damage. I felt a high degree of agitation in you when u left tonight. I’m sorry. I guess I’m in a process of being torn down so I can rebuild.”
Gibson stars in the upcoming comedy, The Beaver with Jodie Foster, who has stood by the troubled actor, saying “I hope I can help him get through this dark moment.”
Oh, Mel, that’s so not what women want.