Marie Osmond opened up about her son, Michael Bryan’s suicide on Thursday’s Oprah.
Osmond, 51, recalls, “When I heard him say to me, I have no friends, it brought back when I went through depression because you really feel so alone. I’m not a depressed person, but I understand that place, that darkness. I told him … Mike, I’m gonna be there Monday and it’s gonna be okay. But depression doesn’t wait till Monday.”
Bryan, 18, committed suicide by jumping from his Los Angeles apartment last February.
Osmond, whose 2001 memoir, Behind the Smile, chronicled her own battle with postpartum depression, admitted, “I’ve been through some tough things in my life. This is … probably the hardest thing I’ve been through.”
During her candid interview, Winfrey asked Osmond if she has regrets. Osmond admitted, “I think there’s always ‘what if’s.’ What if I had just put him on a plane and said come be with me, or gone there? I think if you live in ‘what if’s,’ you stop living.”
Osmond revealed why she went back to work so soon after her son’s death.
“It was really hard. It was a calculated decision. I’m unique, I guess. I’m a female in the entertainment business who has been working 48 years consistently. My stage is my safe place. It doesn’t scare me, like I guess it scares some people. And I knew that if I didn’t get back on stage that I may never get back on stage,” Osmond shared.